Throwing myself a pity party for a moment. I am feeling very alone today.
This week has been really rough with the kids suffering from jetlag. On a typical night I don't get to sleep until around 11/11:30. CC then wakes up at 1am from jetlag and won't sleep until 6-7am. The whole time she is up, I am up as well. Then at 9:30 I wake up for the day (and wake the kids up too) because I want to break this jetlag cycle. So far it's not working. On top of it all, TJ got some gastrointestinal virus in Taiwan and I've caught it. After getting about 2.5 hours of sleep last night CC woke me up and wouldn't sleep again until just after 7. I went to sleep shortly after and woke up for the day at 9. I found myself with body aches and chills.
I also realized that CC is low on milk and I'll have to make a trip to the market today or tomorrow. Since I wasn't feeling well I really didn't want to drag two kids to the supermarket on the weekend. Do you know how busy those things are on the weekends?!?!? Anyway, I started to think of people I could call on to help me either watch the kids or get the milk. I was also thinking of people I could possibly rely on to help watch the kids today for a few hours while I rested. Tim is in Atlanta for a conference, my mom is still in Taiwan, my brother is out of town, my sister is super busy with her own family, my in-laws are all too far away. Two cousins were working and one was sick himself. That left no one. I felt so alone at that point. Many of the people I know have the assistance of at least one (if not both) sets of parents to help them on a regular basis. Tim's parents are in Hawaii and my mom hasn't been in the best in health since before I had TJ. I don't feel entitled or anything; Tim and I know that our kids are OUR responsibility. I normally think my life is alright, and I handle my family just fine. This is one of the rare moments when I felt like I was going out of my mind and I just had to cry in frustration.
Prayers are much appreciated - please pray that we can just get over the illnesses and jetlag. Tim comes home tomorrow - yay!
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