March 30, 2008
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Pity party
Throwing myself a pity party for a moment. I am feeling very alone today.
This week has been really rough with the kids suffering from jetlag. On a typical night I don't get to sleep until around 11/11:30. CC then wakes up at 1am from jetlag and won't sleep until 6-7am. The whole time she is up, I am up as well. Then at 9:30 I wake up for the day (and wake the kids up too) because I want to break this jetlag cycle. So far it's not working. On top of it all, TJ got some gastrointestinal virus in Taiwan and I've caught it. After getting about 2.5 hours of sleep last night CC woke me up and wouldn't sleep again until just after 7. I went to sleep shortly after and woke up for the day at 9. I found myself with body aches and chills.
I also realized that CC is low on milk and I'll have to make a trip to the market today or tomorrow. Since I wasn't feeling well I really didn't want to drag two kids to the supermarket on the weekend. Do you know how busy those things are on the weekends?!?!? Anyway, I started to think of people I could call on to help me either watch the kids or get the milk. I was also thinking of people I could possibly rely on to help watch the kids today for a few hours while I rested. Tim is in Atlanta for a conference, my mom is still in Taiwan, my brother is out of town, my sister is super busy with her own family, my in-laws are all too far away. Two cousins were working and one was sick himself. That left no one. I felt so alone at that point. Many of the people I know have the assistance of at least one (if not both) sets of parents to help them on a regular basis. Tim's parents are in Hawaii and my mom hasn't been in the best in health since before I had TJ. I don't feel entitled or anything; Tim and I know that our kids are OUR responsibility. I normally think my life is alright, and I handle my family just fine. This is one of the rare moments when I felt like I was going out of my mind and I just had to cry in frustration.
Prayers are much appreciated - please pray that we can just get over the illnesses and jetlag. Tim comes home tomorrow - yay!
Comments (10)
aw, poor thing. no close friends nearby?
good thing he comes back soon. hope you get some rest soon!
gina, you should've called me. i'm so close. i would've babysat for a few hours!!!
*hug* that sucks!! you're totally allowed the pity party moment.
you poor thing! hang in there just a little longer... may God give you strength!
whereabout do you live?
ryc: yeah, but it's not like i couldn't have watch them for a bit on the weekend... or even go pick up groceries for you! call me next time!!
yeah sounds like post it on xanga next time and somebody's bound to be able to chip in!! oh yeah i'd been tempted to try out vons.com delivery a few times... i think they waive the delivery charge on the first order. might come in handy occasionally. ryc, we're in fontana, literally on your way to vegas.
oh gina! i'm so sorry i couldn't help. when does tim come back? are you feeling better now? how's jetlag? i hope things get better. my parents have been back for a week already and they're still jetlagged. i can't imagine with little ones. there are also moments when i've felt "alone." but chin up, tomorrow's a brand new day!
Oh Gina, I know...it's been a long. I'm sorry about you feeling lonely. I know. Just remember if you need me, if you always call me if you need milk for the kids...that's fine. Feel better. Take care
ryc: Roy is "scheduled" to deploy from Sept to Dec (4 months). Maybe longer. We'll see when he gets the final order. There's training for their specific order beforehand and decompress time after they return from deployment as well.
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